Wed Aug 07, 2002
These day, I'm tired and in a confusion mood so I cannot concentrate to do anything! Many things have to be done, and maybe I have some chance? But I don't know where to start. Tired, some time I feel that I like to give up everything. Maybe I need some one who really understand me.
But I know I can take back my balance.
Sun Aug 11,2002
I was always expecting that chance. But now I don't know what to think, someone said that I should wait for a better chance. Hope that it is right!
Mon Aug 19, 2002
Last weekend, I was really sad. I still feel the sore feeling now, I've never been like that before. And I have to give a hard decision, I know, it's difficult to do but it's neccessary. I was hurt.
Tue Aug 20, 2002
I'm in a trance
I don't know what to do, I'm stuck...really really...AHHHHHHH
Thu Sep 5, 2002
I have the result that I can continue my post-graduate, I'm a researcher now!!! But it doeas turn me up much.
Life is so complicated, although I always want it to be as simple as possible. I have to change myself once again. Maybe I don't need anyone who understand me. People treat others through their masks. Is it necessary when we are all going to the same target, the death. Am I a dreamer? Maybe now I don't want to contact anyone, either. I feel so tired. Oh, people, I'm losing my faith in you.
Thu Sep 26, 2002
Now I understand my largest point is confidence. It's the reason why that my close friends are those who believe in me. I can hardly get on with some one who is too sure of his/her self to believe in others. Because it always make me feel less confident, and it means he/her is pushing me away. I believe that I have ability to do but I often worry too much and think too much about things that I am not used to. One thing I have to do now is inscreasing my confident, from the smallest to the largest.
I can do it! becasue that's what I want!
* Prepare well anything!
* Nothing is absolutely important!
* Be brave!
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Devious Journal Entry
What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.
You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.
I offer only the truth, nothing more.
Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill
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mmm id love to be a pro one day.. but no im just doing it for fun at the moment.
i turn 16 at the end of december.
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i also have a drawing tablet which makes it a lot easier.
i made a set of brushes to help making hair quicker and easier. which are located at [link]
before i got my tablet i use to draw pencil sketches.. then scan them in and colour. i still do that from time to time. but now i just draw straight into the computer.
anyways thankyou so much for the favourite =c)
and good luck with your portraits!
~bex
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you have quite a few good airbrushing pieces here.
keep it up.
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